Is it just me or did Instagram kill having a blog?
BTW This is my Instagram!  🙂
I’m such a visual person and I love expressing myself and what my day is like through photos and I find it difficult to update my blog via my phone so I just never sit down at my computer do it because having a phone in my hand has kind of killed me using my computer! Oy vey.
I wonder if I’ll ever feel the gumption to get back to blogging again.
Did I tell you that I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD? Being on medication has been a game changer because I no longer have a cacophony of sounds and thoughts rattling around in my brain all at once. It’s just so quiet in there now. LOL
I can sit still.
I can be more present and in the moment.
I can read again.
I can focus on one thing at a time – actually what I mean by that is that I am better at creating boundaries for myself around doing one thing at a time.
I have better boundaries. 🙂
I feel level.
I don’t spin out as much.
I feel more confident about myself.
I feel less tired because my brain doesn’t have to do all this extra work to present “normal”.
Taking meds has been a pretty positive experience. The first 3 weeks of taking the medicine was uncomfortable (side effects) but then things leveled out and now the only major side effect I have is constipation but I remedy that with a little extra fiber in the morning and I’m good to go.
The only downside so far is that because of my better boundaries around how many “spoons” I have in a day – is that I don’t have ten little projects all going at once so I sometimes feel like I’m not as productive.
It’s been a brain shift to not be down on myself for not being as “productive” because in actual fact – when I do focus on one project at a time – that project gets done with much more precision, and thoughtfulness and is completed in a timely manner.
I wish I had explored my diagnosis sooner. I had a few weeks of real grief about what my life could have been like if I had been diagnosed earlier. I was a child of the 70’s/80’s and nobody was talking about this stuff. Plus – fems present differently than masc humans so it probably wasn’t evident to anyone what was going on.
I will tell you that a lot of SHAME around school and how poorly I did – disappeared once I was diagnosed. I had a lightbulb go off with my diagnosis and realized it wasn’t my fault that I was struggling in school – I am neurodivergent and I wasn’t being supported properly. So… C’est la vie. When you know better – you do better. 🙂
How are you?