Was woken up by a bad dream around 6:30am today. It was a doozy…see if you can figure it out for me.
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I was in my apartment and I couldn’t find Fergus. I asked Gerry where he was and he yelled from behind a closed door (maybe the bathroom?) that he didn’t know.
I opened the front door and saw that Fergus was by my neighbours apartment door at the end of the hall. The floor was littered with feathers, bones and poop. Once I got closer I realized that he had swallowed a bird and then pooped on the floor. The bird was stuck in his throat and just the wing was poking out of his mouth. Fergus was gagging but I knew he was ok because he was able to breathe so I scooped him up and brought him back into the house and put him down on the bed.
I yelled at Gerry “Get dressed. We have to go to the hospital!” and then I went back out into the hallway and started cleaning up the poop and bones. I noticed I was wearing blue nitrile gloves (like the ones we use at Tattoo Zoo) and I removed the gloves so I could vacuum the rug to pick up all the feathers.
I went back to the bedroom to check on Fergus and Gerry was holding him in his arms. He looked up at me and said “I guess the Robin is back.”
“What Robin?”
“The Mommy Robin who lives in the hallway. That must be her baby.”
I tried to force the bird out of Fergus’ mouth but then noticed that Fergus’ lips were really dry and I started to worry that he was dehydrated. I woke up scared out of my wits and couldn’t fall back to sleep.
WHAT THE HECK? Feel free to interpret that one … 🙂
Okie, here are my thoughts…
First, sybolism…birds represent freedom. I am going to assume a lot of things in this, if I am wrong, so be it…
Fergus gives you a feeling of freedom. I am guessing that the majority of time you go out is either because of Fergus or you bring him along with you. I am not going to say that you would spend less time out and about without him, or that he gives you a certain amount of confidence, but I will insinuate it. I think this dream is all about Dexter. He came into your life recently, and thank god he did. You are doing great work with him, but he is very very time consuming. In your dream you could not find Fergus, he was down the hall doing his own thing. This would be unusual. He should always be where you think him to be, but its like kids when they feel they arent as codepentant then they will start to go off on their own to live their own lives. You feel that you are neglecting him by spending less time with him due to Dexter. He ate a baby bird. Babies depend on their mothers and symbolize innocence. You feel he is losing that connection with you because he is not singly your little baby anymore *new baby syndrome*. Gerry wasnt even in the room, didnt notice Fergus missing, was busy, was distant. He *may* not be helping much with the Dexter thing, and if perhaps he helped more, you would have more time for Fergus. Fergus choked on the baby bird when he tried to kill it, and pooped, which indicates he was afraid. He doesnt want to lose that connection with you, which in this dream is what he is symbolically destroying. Those are the most important parts that I can see. Again, thats my opinion, please dont take any of it poorly. Just consider it for entertainment purposes only 😉
Sarah. That was DEEP!! and amazing. All those things are happening!! YES! You might be on to something.
Sarah-thank you for sharing with us something as intimate as dreams and, with it, your vulnerability. That’s brave, man.
Sarah II-what an amazing, informed take. I so want to submit my dreams to you for analysis!!
Really fascinating stuff. Thanks you two great gals….
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Hi Sarah, I just made a loaf of your Sassy Sandwich Bread but I add two tbls of toasted poppyseeds. Nice easy loaf to make on a Sunday morning. As for your dream, I can say that you may think that your dog is embarrassing or has inconvenienced your neighbours at some point. Don’t sweat the petty things, the big picture is that you and Jerry are Fergus’ parents and you are only looking out for what is best. As for the symbol of the bird and the feathers and the poop, perhaps Fergus would like to go out to the park when you are feeling grunged and you feel a little guilty. I hope your dream didn’t make your day a doozy.
Cheers,
Tamz.